wow, it's been a long time!!!

UPDATE:

• Today is day 136 of not self-injuring!
• Shiva just ate for the first time again... for almost 6 months!!!
• My mom threw a suprise b-day party for me... it definately was a suprise cuz it was like 2 months after my b-day!!! but thanks to all who came!!!
• I'm still struggling with my eating disorders, but it's been over 3 weeks since i purged...
• My brother is now a teenager!!! AHHHHHHH!!!
• I LOVE LISA!!!
• World cup is still going strong... watched sweeden vs. germany thismorning... germany won 2-0... watching argentina vs. mexico right now... it was 1-1 last time i checked...
• England got through to the next round... they're kicking off at 10am. tomorrow!!!

ok, well not much else to say, except.......

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARA!!! 18!!!

love you lisa

~Jess~

Well, I looked on here and realized I havent updated all week!!!

I've been home all week... it was my spring break... and i was very lucky to be able to stay at home for all of it... most people dont

UPDATE:

• Shiva's still not eating... 17 weeks now
• Today is day 67 of not self-injuring
• I havent hung out with anyone all week even though i've been home
• I must have heated Vishnu's mice up too fast, because as soon as she squeezed it, the skin ruptured and blood and guts went everywhere... gross...

hum... I just got back from my brother's baseball game... i brought Shiva with me, but it was a bit cold so after a while i put her in the pillow case and then in the box to keep her warm... she loved the attention though!!! Oh yeah.... my brother's team won... 6-2!!! woot!!!

nothing else to say really... except that i really miss you all

have a happy Easter

~Jess~

well... i'm home for the weekend... my grandma's over from england, so i get to come home next week as well... tomorrow we're gonna go shopping!!!

i'm happy cuz i havent had one of those major anxiety attacks... (basically just some people from school know what i'm talking about)

i'm gonna try to feed Shiva tomorrow... she hasnt eaten in something like 15 weeks... i hope she eats soon!!! i'm also feeding Vishnu... no problem there at all...

today my mum bought me "Evita"... so i've been watching it... and now the song "i'd be good for you" is stuck in my head!!! we also watched pride & prejudice cuz it was my sister's movie night...

i dont know why, but i'd really like it to thunderstorm right now... dont ask why... je ne sais pas!!!  ("i dont know" in french)

well, i'm tired as hell, so i'm gonna leave it at this.......

love you

~Jess~

well... i think today is day 32 of not self-injuring!!! w00 h00!!!

this weekend's been ok... i slept a lot today... and my mum yelled at me!!! but then we went to walgreens and it's all good...

yesterday i went to target, and we ordered pizza and watched a movie!!!

i didnt see anyone this weekend... well, i saw cari at target, but i dont think she was pleased to see me...

rob keeps calling... i dont know what to do, so i just ignore his calls...

well, yesterday i fed vishnu... we tried her on frozen mice cuz it's cheaper and it's safer... she ate 3 of them!!! then i cleaned out both of their cages outside... by the time i was done my pants were soaking wet!!!

well, i'm talking to nay nay right now... so i'm gonna go cuz i also need a shower...

to those who wrote to me, i'll write you back... i promise... it's just been REALLY busy lately!!!

love ya

~Jess~

ok ok ok...

well, a lot's been happening...

school's going pretty well... dorm life's stressful, like always... but that's life i suppose...

this really funny thing happened the other day... it went something like this...
           cody and keith were screwing around, and cody ended up being restrained by jeromy... then keith came up to jeromy and squeezed toothpaste all over him... then keith went down the hall, found a bucket of mop-water, and dumped it all over jeromy... then keith got restrained by terry... then in the middle of both being restrained, they start laughing hysterically!!! it was sooooooooooo funny!!!

anywayz... been here since yesterday afternoon... i went to jess's this afternoon, but that's all i've done with other people... but i do have to thank kara cuz she called to hang out... and i was soooooooooo mad cuz we cant hang out this weekend!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

Shiva is still not eating... 10 weeks now... i'll try again tomorrow... so far, mr. twiggles is the luckiest rat alive!!! lol

it's almost been 3 weeks since i last self-injured!!! no matter what you guys think, it's a LONG time for me!!!

well, it's late and i'm oober tired

love ya'll

~Jess~